A few thoughts...
First quit talking about what you don't want (chemo, surgery, etc.) and instead focus on and say what you do want.
Focus is everything, focus on wanting to live not (not on not wanting to die).
Focus on peace and wellness (BE).
I have put off responding because I wanted to be complete, and I decided I should write to you real quick with a few additional things, while I am taking time to be more thorough in an article I am writing on Blue Iris Learning Center.
There are three things necessary in order for cancer to grow:
1. Low B6 level (start supplementing NOW).
2. Low or absent chymotrypsin (a pancreatic enzyme).
3. Death focus (I was taught death wish, but sometime ago I found that death focus - I don't want to die is just as powerful at creating what you don't want as death wish).
Nullify any of these and you begin to dissipate the cancer, all of them and may be nullified faster.
I do have a technique for getting the pancreas back manufacturing chymotrypsin, but that requires a consultation with you, either over the phone or Skype.
Also two additional supplements to help would be:
Apricot kernels 7 a day for 90 days, then 3 a day indefinitely. You can search "laetrile" and Dr. Ernst Krebs to find more information on that. One article is at:
https://health.centreforce.com/health/krebs.html
Essiac Tea.
The preferred Essiac Tea is the one with all 8 herbs in it ( burdock, Indian rhubarb, sheep sorrel, watercress, blessed thistle, red clover, and kelp). Flor Essence would be the brand of Essiac Tea with the original 8 herbs in it. Many Essiac Teas only carry the first four.